Scott's Spiel

The Prelude to Farewell

Lately, I've been pondering the purpose of keeping this blog alive. It's been several months since I last put words to screen, despite having more free time than usual. However, I've been pleasantly surprised by the number of people who continue to read this blog, and that, if only for a brief moment, has rekindled my desire to write.

As I sit here typing, I find myself concluding the first week of my last block of my second-to-last year at University. It's impossible not to recognize that this marks the beginning of the end of this chapter in my life. Change has never been my friend, and I can't help but feel a sense of trepidation as I inch closer to bidding farewell to the comforts of my current life in just over a year's time. Nevertheless, the student life has run its course for me, and I eagerly await the commencement of a proper job.

Before the emotional rollercoaster of this transition begins, I have a summer warm-up ride to navigate. I can't recall a time in the past few years when I'd be spending months without some of the close friends I've grown accustomed to having around. In the coming days and weeks, I'll have to say goodbye to too many people whom I'm not ready to part with. At least one of them, I fear, I may never see again. Change has always unsettled me.

There's a week abroad to look forward to—an adventure I haven't had in over four years (!!). But before that, I have four more weeks of fourth year to conquer. Thankfully, I've relocated back home for this month, and I'm almost finding myself grateful for my family's company.

What troubles me most is the knowledge that once I navigate through the summer, and life returns to its normal routine—because it will, I have no doubt—the ominous specter of my finals will loom ever larger. Contemplating revision for them is not something I particularly relish. Only 255 days to go, in case you were wondering.

In the end, I'm not particularly eager to retire this blog. It serves as a source of amusement when I look back on it. However, as I edge closer to the vast world of work, I realize I can't keep this going indefinitely. My intention, then, is to continue until that pivotal moment arrives, hopefully using this space to release some of the stress that is bound to come my way. If you happen to know me in person, rest assured, it's incredibly embarrassing when someone brings up this blog. It's a self-confidence issue I've yet to conquer.

Let the journey toward the end commence.